remember when you're in secondary school and you felt like you're the most stressful person on earth with homeworks and exams and you can't wait to finish and get out of that school?
i know i did went through that phase. now that we're able to think more maturely, sec sch doesn't seem so bad after all.
I read back some of my old blog entries and it was
E-to da-M- to da-BARRASING. such whiny person i was!
but i do remember that drive that i had in me everyday at that age
- wanting to play & learn new songs on the guitar and keyboard, wishing i would be a performer
- blading in the evening hoping to become a female pro-aggressive inline skater like Yasutoko brothers
- dancing every night to Justin Timberlake/ MJ/ Britney/ Nsync hoping to become a dancer
- searching for recipes on the net and baking hoping to open a cafe one day
- playing soccer with the boys hoping i would join a female soccer squad.
where is it all now? i've no idea. i've become a lazy person ever since ___ .
yes, ever since that.
ever since i figure out that my life is settled. ever since i thought that just being a housewife is okay. ever since the only answers that came to my head was "Heh~ that's life". ever since i stopped helping out with the chores around the house coz my mom was getting lazier.
and now its my turn. i've officially become a lazy person.
how i slouch while i walk
how i slur over my words when i talk
how i always answered ' i don't know' or ' i think so' coz i was lazy too think
how i don't make phonecalls to anyone coz then i would have to think of a conversation
how i hate big groups now coz socializing is tiring
how i don't care what i wear anymore (flimsy pants and slippers ftw)
and sadly, how i'm not really bothered about the outcomes of my future.
the old me is dead and gone.
but it doesn't hurt creating a new one.
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